Watching a Struggle

100B8252 crop2 AlanI love my girls. They’re both sweet, smart, funny, beautiful… (I could go on and on.) My son, though, has taught me so much about the heart of my Father. Alan’s had a tough week. He’s in a new school this year, and all the anxiety seemed to crash in on him at once. On Tuesday. I picked him up early after he ended up in the office with an upset stomach- again. Eventually, he admitted that he’s afraid he’s going to get in trouble, or he’s going to mess up an assignment, or… There was a list of worries.

I hugged him, brainstormed with him how things could be better, and made his favorite dinner. And yesterday morning… he sat in the car in tears again. I wish I could fix it for him. I wish I could smooth out the path in front of him (and the girls) so he never has heartbreak or struggle or pain… but I can’t. I have to stand by and watch him go through these things. I can hug him. Comfort him. Commiserate with him. Yes. But he has to face this himself.

In a greater way, the heart of my Father God, is that tender towards my struggles. He knows it’s hard. He knows it hurts, but yet, He also knows I have to face it. Even Jesus Christ faced extreme suffering. Thankfully, my Father God has the power to redeem the hard times, so that they turn out for my good and His glory. And while I can’t be with my son during his school day, God never leaves my alone.

When I was in Florida this past summer, I stood on the beach the very first day and watched wave after wave roll in around my ankles. A mother stood nearby helping her little boy jump the waves. As I watched, I heard a whisper in my soul. “See that?” God said. “I will not stop the waves, but I will NEVER let go of your hand.”

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Friday Update: Vacation

Greetings from the Sunshine State! I am smack in the middle of my first ever solo vacation, thanks to my fabulous husband. He said I never get a break and convinced me to take one.

What am I writing? The big edits for this round are done! Woo Hoo! That leaves little tweaks and proofs when I get back. The newsletter went out this week. If you’d like to be on the mailing list, you can sign up in that box on the right.

What have I learned? A Firefox add-in called Zemanta helps me find photos and other stuff for my posts by ‘reading’ them as I type them. If I were more paranoid, it would totally freak me out.

What have I read? I brought a stack of books to the beach and I’ll fill you in on those later. Right before I left, I finished The Wounded Heart: Hope for Adult Victims of Childhood Sexual Abuse by Dan Allender. It is intense. If you are a survivor, take it very slowly. There are tremendously powerful ideas to grasp. If you are a friend or a family member, by reading this, you are giving an unsurpassed gift of grace and understanding to your loved one. I appreciated Dr. Allender’s compassion for survivors, never denying or minimizing their trauma.

What has God taught me this week? Too much for one post. One quick one before I wrap up- I allow far too much to distract me, and steal my joy.

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