(I was sick the last couple of days, so this is an edited, updated repost. Thanks for understanding!)
In Psalm 11, David begins with an affirmation– I trust God. Then he goes on- So why do you expect me to run around in circles like the sky is falling? God knows what’s going on here. He knows all our true, deep motivations and I trust Him to judge us all. I’m not worried.
As I’m putting what I hope are the [final] finishing touches on Contingency, I’m seeing how much my characters wrestle with trusting God, Bobbi especially. She’s a capable, confident woman, and figures she can handle almost everything. When her husband cheats on her, though, she reaches her limit. How could God let that happen? Isn’t He supposed to protect His own? It causes her to reevaluate the box she had kept God in.
It also led me to some questions of my own. Do I have God in a box that limits His freedom to work in my life, to use me? Do I trust God’s heart- His love for me? Do I trust God to the point of being at complete peace with my situation? Even if that situation is another rejection or another closed door?
Trusting God is relinquishing control. I like control (even though I’ve proven that I’m not very good at it).
Trusting God is trusting ALL of God. I trust His goodness and His sovereignty. I have a little more trouble with trusting that He delights in me, or that He’ll answer when I call. We’re working on those.
Trusting God takes practice. That means more situations that require trust. Great.
Trusting God is NOT for wimps. If it was easy, God wouldn’t have to encourage us to do it so often.
What about you? Where has God challenged you to trust Him? In what areas have you grown? Where do you still need a little work?